Friday, February 29, 2008

When Stephanie smiles~

FLIGHT by steph

I have a wonderful friend. He wrote this song for me.... I was so touched that I wanted to share the lyrics....he is an incredible musician and song writer...I wanted to thank him publicly for his love, and his constant encouragement...I will be having my surgery on Monday...In the meantime...Frank Barrese will be in the recording studio putting the last touches on his tribute..Thank you my wonderful confidante...with love, steph


There's nothing so sweet as when Stephanie smiles
The sun shines much brighter, there's blue skies for miles
The breezes feel blessed, just to blow through her hair
And I am in heaven whenever she's near

There's nothing so sad as when Stephanie's gone
The birds in the trees sing a sad, lonesome song
And I start to hunger for her gentle touch
But I can't let on that I miss her so much
So I suffer in silence and wait patiently
Until Stephanie smiles at me

Stephanie lives in a world beyond mine
And I want to be with her, but I can't cross that line
I bear the burden of love that's in vain
And so I wrote this song 'cause it eases the pain

There's nothing so tender as Stephanie's kiss
No nothing as precious as that could exist
But she's just a dream that can never come true
So I hide my feelings, what else can I do
But suffer in silence and wait patiently
Until Stephanie smiles at me

The pain that life will deliver...can wake us up and deliver us to a state of consciousness in which we can make each moment count and find meaning in our existence.

Saturday, February 23, 2008

stephanie mastini and breast cancer/an update

A long due update... I needed to absorb this new diagnosis.. it's true..I have been diagnosed with breast cancer again, and now I need to have a bilateral mastectomy.....
I hope that I can chronicle this journey and come out on others by telling my story... I firmly believe that this is a new chapter ...a difficult one at best, but I hope that all the support I have shown to my "Forgotten Ones" will come back to me...I believe there is a reason for everything in life...but still, it be blunt...having a support team is so important, and that is what I have been working on the last few has been exahusting; sometimes cancer society will get a call from me at 2 AM they have a 24 hour hot line called YME?(I will share the number in my next blog)... I have cried a river, and now I am at the angry stage but getting to the acceptance part...I will be having reconstruction immediately, so I will have those 18 year old breasts in one year..!never thought I would have this type of breast augmentation! But the girls will be's a long road, but I will be approaching this with humor and strength...

I am meditating, listening to postive affirmations and tapes and truly trying to keep a stiff upper lip..
There is help out there!...All you have to do is ask..that is what the American Cancer Society is all about!!
I will be happy to hear your stories and I will share mine the next few months..sometimes life takes a turn, but there are other roads to travel...
I also believe that the mind is a powerful tool and I am concentrating on positive vibes emanating throughout my journey...
Hang on tight, this will be an interesting journey...thank you (you know who you are) for your love...steph

"And would it have been worth it, after all,
Would it have been worth while,
After the sunsets and the dooryards and the sprinkled streets,
After the novels, after the teacups, after the skirts that trail along the
And this, and so much more?--
It is impossible to say just what I mean!"
T.S. Eliot-J Alfred Prufrock