~~my journey with breast cancer, and Graves’ disease ~ .I share my challenges and story ~
Happy Birthday to my new breasts and my life!
Six years today I had a double mastectomy with reconstruction. I am truly blessed and I am still going strong....Living my life and looking forward to a much needed vacation. One thing I learned the last six years is to start saying no. I have been taking care of everyone my whole life it seems ...started when I was nine and my sister was born. I was a young single parent of two, on top of that. My Dad and Mom were also part of my care giving lifestyle. Now, I have stepped back. We need to take care of ourselves and we forget sometimes. I didn't even realize I had cancer when I was caring for my father since all I did was run run run... I do not regret any of the time I have spent being a caregiver but now it's time for me.
My grandson was born three years ago and his name is Everest. My daughter Cara Podenski, didn't think I was important enough to see him, talk to him, or even know his name for over three years. When my mother passed away in October I picked up the phone to call Cara . I was in shock since I was not even told my mother was in a nursing home. I had been blocked by my daughter for so long but it didn't stop me from trying . When she picked up the phone it was quite a surprise. I honestly had instinctually thought to call my daughter and we talked for three hours. Later, I was introduced to my grandson and I was "Grandma" .We Skyped, we talked, we laughed. After a few weeks I was so happy I was delirious. I have been filled with pain for so long that it felt as if I was a balloon that had been lying dormant. No air and no flight path. I was forgotten for so long that this new little person was a breath of air.I was floating again. Seattle is far in distance from o…
It’s been over three months since my daughter Cara Podenski cut me off from ALL communication with her and my grandson Everest. I sent him a gift and it arrived last week. It is an art set that I would have gone crazy for as a child .It’s a Crayola kit and it has so many things I would be jumping out of my skin at his age. It has all types of crayons and markers and pencils and I just was hoping he would love art as much as I do. The point is I’m not going to give up. I’ve done everything I could possibly do to connect with my sister, Francine Mastini (aka Jayne Fury) and brother, and now that my mother and father are both gone well I’m an orphan. They managed to exclude me even to the point that They are going against my father’s wishes. My father left me a ship, but they have held it from me. It was in his will.. There were also three cremation pots from my mother’s ashes and I have not received mine. I do know that my Italian family love me unconditionally.…
I Thanks to my Graves family I’m now the Rock Star ! It’s so difficult to have Graves’ disease and It’s getting very emotional for me because I have everything that you can think of that most people don’t have when they have graves. before I was diagnosed I knew something was wrong but no one would listen . I had breast cancer 2006 and 2008 with double mastectomy and reconstruction. .Every time I was plagued with strange symptoms, I did not only not get the right help but I had lost my family and I was alone in a strange town in GA. I had moved from Virginia to Seattle again to be near my daughter and she had no desire to have any relationship. Then my brother John Mastini who I was never close to, begged me to go to Georgia so I went from Seattle to Georgia. Why? I was trying to piece our family back together after such . . My Dad was hurting for years not just physical but emotional pain. My brother moved from New Jersey to a remote area in Georgia and his teenage kids liv…