I was born this way .

This speech will open many doors.  I hope one of them will be for you.  You are not forgotten.  Maybe, you were like me.  Afraid. Afraid because I thought I did something to cause all the pain that was done to me. It didn’t matter how pretty I was or how talented.  I was broken.  I’m still trying to glue myself back into who I think I deserve to be. But I’m a lot stronger now.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtu.be&v=14KX7xOJsqE

I have spent years trying to understand and forgive myself for blaming Myself for all the many traumatic situations I have survived miraculously.  Yes, even the sexual assaults.  I might not have Stefani's voice but everything she said Affected me so deeply including the PTSD, the physical pain... .  Hiding away.  Trying to go on, I too felt every day.  I was given many opportunities just like her. Opportunities that could have brought me into that room with her. But I kept turning them down, blaming my daughter, because she didn’t want me to act or model. It wasn’t her. It was me. I didn’t think I was good enough.  I do now believe that I am good enough, I am strong enough, and I will fight for my voice to be heard even if no one has ever heard of me .  I will tell the truth about everything that has happened to me so it doesn’t happen to other women. I want them to have a voice .  I deserved much more but I have not given up and I will never give up.

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